Finally a year older
As of yesterday I'm officially 27! I don't really know what to expect in the upcoming year but to be honest it really doesn't feel any different. I've noticed that the older I get the less I feel like making a fuss out of my birthday. It's really just an ordinary day. Obviously I'm thankful for the sentiment that my family puts into making my birthday dinners every year, but especially with my uncle gone, a lot of the excitement left with him. Sometimes I feel like my mom cares more about it than I do most years. Turning 26 has definitely taught me a lot of patience when it comes to how I respond and react to things out of my control. I've had so many curve-balls thrown at me in my mid-20s that most things really don't phase me anymore (Hurray for lexapro!). I wouldn't say I've turned numb to most things but rather I've learned that I don't want or care to give any energy to things that don't make me happy. I've really started to come into my own these last few years and have been trying to prioritize myself whenever possible. I've spent so much of my life stressing out over other people's problems and have made myself sick with anxiety and worry for things that don't even involve me. I love my friends and I love my family but at the end of the day, I'm always going to choose myself. This past year has really taught me that sometimes it's okay to put yourself first and it's not a selfish thing to want to take care of yourself. I hope to continue enforcing that statement in my mind going forward. I'm excited to see what being 27 brings me but I know whatever happens I'll still be okay. From now until forever, I'm living for myself.